God: Ashley, Jump!
Ashley: WHAT?! NOW?!
God: Yes! NOW! …Why are you hiding in the back, when I’ve called you to the forefront? JUMP and I’ll catch you! Trust me.
(I stand up…I hesitate…contemplate…analyze, and I sit back down. Like a Doubting Thomas, I question if God will really catch me, if he really spoke.)
Ashley: Nah! That can’t be God. It surely can’t be my time…not now. Hahaha lol! God you are so hilarious! That’s a good one! Hewww!
(God looks at me with a straight face.)
Ashley: But, but, I’m undone! I’m not prepared! Let me sit under a mentor for just a season…Just one season. Please.
God: Nope. I’ve already invested all that was needed to be invested, the rest requires that you have the faith to transact that which I’ve deposited.
So, I take one step. And then God THRUSTS ME!!! The rest of the time remaining, breathing hard, I panic while flustered to find something to float on, something to keep me stable, asking God to send me some assistance. And well... he sends me nothing, but clues, messengers along the way. He lets me continue to doggy paddle, until I swim, and then from swimming, I finally began to float. My lungs expand; I breathe smoothly; and my body releases tension…the kind of tension that gravitates on my flesh; and well…I unwind.
This entire year has been an assessment of my faith. I’ve never grown so rapidly, so beyond how I actually felt, as if my spirit up and ran, and I had to chase after it. I enter into a land of the unfamiliar, mentally holding a conjured up vision of purpose with unanswered questions, and a curse that was yet to be broken. I walk with a blind fold matted to my eyes. Pitch black, I run…walk…run…walk…patting the walls of grace that God uses to surround me so that I will not be completely knocked off course, in error. Seeking…running…hitting walls, and finally I stumble upon an area called solid ground. I’ve reached a place of permanence, a far-reaching transition that I thought I would never be able to attain. And I’m no longer chasing it and allowing it to drag me, but I’m on solid ground holding it in the palm of my hand. I never knew I could be this whopping huge, this strong, and this sharp. God knew what was inside of me, that which I could not see, pruning me, and birthing it from within me. After taking a quick vacation to run a six mile marathon run, I finally reached a place of stability, and I clearly can see the evidence. God is beyond good, He’s magnificent! :)
John 2: 1-9a
“And the third day there was a marriage in Cana of Galilee; and the mother of Jesus was there: And both Jesus was called, and his disciples, to the marriage. And when they wanted wine, the mother of Jesus saith unto him, They have no wine. Jesus saith unto her, “Woman, what have I to do with thee? Mine hour is not yet come.” His mother saith unto the servants, Whatsoever he saith unto you, do it.” And there were set there six waterpots of stone, after the manner of the purifying of the Jews, containing two or three firkins apiece. Jesus saith unto them, “Draw out now, and bear unto the governor of the feast.” And they bare it. When the ruler of the feast had tasted the water that was made wine. ”
Lord, thank you for seeing our potential and having the faith in coaching us until it buds, unfolds, and fully manifests. In Jesus name…Amen.
May God Bless you according to your faithfulness and obedience to Him.
Be a Blessing,
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